He tells his parents that he loves them
No matter how much they laugh,
No matter how much they say they know.
Even when he is an adult living alone
He wants it to be shown
That no matter how old, he could remind them
That they were the reason why he had a home,
Why he never gave up and always had hope.
He knows that when they argued, they just wanted him to know
That they cared,
That they didn’t want him to be someone whom they would fear.
So everyday no matter what the age or year,
“I” keep on telling my parents that I love them
Because one day,
They won’t be here to hear.
I tried to help.
Tried to be the person you wanted him to be.
But in the end I guess I will be making my leave.
Because no matter how much it hurts, I will always have my own sleeve.
I’m not sad.
Just a little lonely…
But also happy.
Happy to see that as I leave, you will have that sense of relief.
Knowing that all this time you have hurt me.
But because of this, I can finally say a proper good bye.
To the person that I thought of all the time.
No matter how lost we are, you still find a way.
Even when I give up hope, you still decide to stay.
Is there even a way to explain?
Explain the amount of pain that I put you through every single day.
The type of pain that stays on you forever not as a scar but as a stain.
Never hearing a single complaint.
But just a smile and a “How was your day.”
Because of this, how will I be able to find a way.
A way to get past my pain.
So that I can finally help you.
And this time, ask you if you are the one who is okay…
We live in a world of
Those who only care only for themselves than for others.
It’s quite a shame mostly for their mothers and fathers.
Who took the time to raise them to be better.
But what’s the point when what they do, they would continue to do in sunder.
And continue to add a bigger boom to the thunder.
Only causing more pain for those known as their lovers.
Those people are nothing more than
Who do you think you are?
Acting like you’re the one that is being kept afar.
After all the advice that they told you.
You still act like a total fool.
Saying that you’ve been nothing but a tool.
And that you want us to guide you.
But in the end, there was nothing good coming from you.
Nothing but you trying make her into your very own stool.
And even after all of this you treat it as if you never knew.
Who do you think you are?
For me, you are nothing but a despicable fool.
You tried and you lied.
Told her you loved her but had someone else on your mind.
Better luck next time.
And you better not deny.
Because everyone was there at the time.
You said you were a changed person.
You let her believe you.
But now the truth comes out and now, they are all against you.
Each day flies away as this fake smile slowly decays.
A bland expression choosing to stay.
With nothing else to say.
These emotions of mine disappearing every single day.
As people ask if I am okay.
My only excuse would be “I”m just a little bit tired today.”
But later that night I will do the same.
And bring out a pen and paper to write down the many things I wanted to say.
So that in the morning, I can repeat the same things that happened yesterday.